Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Hectic Phase

السلام عليكم

Bismillahi walhamdulillah.

My writing below is my first post which is written in english. So, please ignore if there any grammatical errors below. I'm in the process to improve my english. It had been a long time I didn't speak or write in english.

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This month would be the hardest month that I'd been through. I don't know why. Seems like Allah is going to tell me something that I can't see yet. I don't know what should I do. I faced them so far. But, I still confused for what is the exactly response I should do.

Too many commitments to handle.

I'm participating Ameerah Kubang Pasu and Ameerah Kedah so far. So, there's a lot of tasks I had to do regarding the media tasks, such as designing or editing and many more. A week before that, I need to submit my student's examination paper because they will sit for the End Year Examination at school. Plus, I'm assisting one of my student's mom who work as a lecturer. I'm helping her to do a sort of figure related to her project. There are about 5 to 6 figures that I need to finished. Besides that, our area will conduct a programme. So, I volunteered myself to editing the promotion video. (idk why I did that so)

I'm still okay and still doing my works but in a very slow progression. That is my weakness so far. If I had a lot of things to do, I will be so stressfull and it will lead to slow down my progression. But, Allah is the best Planner. He is telling me something.



Week 1 - My Laptop broke down

I'm having my school holidays on that week. So, I decided to finish and submit the examination questions. I had six papers to submit. The next two week will be the examination week. Unfortunately, my laptop couldn't be turn on. It showing me something like I had to format it, by hook or by crook. Okay, then what should I do .. I tried to take over the problem by myself because my financial status was not so good at that time. I'd been so stressful at that moment and I was so blurred. I failed. The process was so complicated. I never handled any rebooting cases before. So, I decided to pass the problem to a technician. And, alhamdulillah. The problem settled. My laptop can be function as usual. So, my task lagged.


Week 2 - My Smartphone broke down

One day, I had a meeting at Alor Setar and that day was a rainy day. I mean, heavily rainy day. I am going to attend that meeting because one of my partner couldn't make it,she was out of the area. I rode my scooter to Jitra first because I'm going to car pooling Widad to Alor Setar. I had no choice. I have no car driving license. Fortunately, she is always okay. Praised to Allah for bring her together in my life journey. She helped me a lot. May Allah bless her. I didn't notice that my handbag is not waterproof. I wore the raincoat during riding the scooter before,and I already put the beg under it.  When I arrived at the meeting room, I put out my notebook on the table. I realised that it is watery. Oh no! My phone can't be functioned as well. So, I can't receive any calls or messages anymore since that day. Can you imagine,it happened when I had a lot of things to settled down! I'm so sad, contradictly also feels relieved because maybe this is a chance to take a short rest. I have no more money because I had use them to treat my family during my convocation day and paid my driving class. So, I only communicate using facebook account,since that is the only way to socialised with my friends in order to make sure that I will not missed any news. A week after that, I borrowed my mom's money to buy a new smartphone. The old smartphone, I need to quarantine it for a while. The cost for repair the screen need about RM 389. It is better for me for having a new phone rather than repair it. Alhamdulillah, this case closed.


Week 3 - My Laptop's screen broken

I simplified my story. My laptop's screen already broken. It was an accident. So, I can't use it anymore. There's a lot of files there. What I had done is, I connect it to a PC screen so that I still can access my laptop. Sometimes I prefer to let them go because I don't want to messed up my mind with those things that I can't settle down immediately. Everything needs money. I still had a lot of designs to do. I need ideas and also strengthness to go through this hardships.

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I have no ideas for what is next. Only Allah knows.

I hope that I will be strong to face the next tests, yes more tests soon. Sometimes, I don't know how to explain to others that I can't accept anymore tasks. But, they rely on me and even me, myself understand that there's not so much people that can do such this tasks. I don't know why it was so hard to say 'NO' to others. At last, I bear it by myself and sometimes I had been forced and urged by some people that keep asking me the progress. I just need time to finish all of my tasks. I hope that Allah will bring me up with someone who can understand all of my problems. Furthermore, this is the path I had chose. I have no choice for not being test, right....

I hope that Allah will strengthens me on this path. O' Allah, keep me istiqomah. I hope that I'm not going quit from this field. Amen.


FATIN HANINI BINTI MOHD YUSOFF
21st of November 2017 \ 1 R.Awal 1439h
1:57 am
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